I Probably Shouldn't Push The Publish Post Button On This One But I Don't Care, Neener Neener Neener

• this post is in list form tonight because i'm too tired to make it fancy for you
• there may, or may not have, been exactly one a half (i shared, point for me) bottles of wine and *maybe* a couple coors lights in the making of this post
• a close friend of mine had a life altering 'thing' (for the lack of a better word) happen today
• i can talk about it here because you don't know her
• ok, fine, like, two of you don't know her
• shut it
• it's not fair
• the 'thing'
• what do you say to somebody who has just been through a terrible ordeal?
• "i'm sorry"
• "everything happens for a reason"
• "time heals all wounds"
• i don't know, i'm bad at that kind of stuff
• actually, come to think of it, who isn't bad at that kind of stuff?  i'd like to meet them and give them a firm handshake and a "attaboy" for being spectacular at a thing most people are a big fail at.
• so instead i was just *there* for her
• there was some wine
• a little laughter
• and a lot of love
• i know that we are just a mere *speck* in the whole scheme of things
• but i devote everything i have to the people i love
• and they are far more than a speck to me
• i hurt when they hurt
• and i am hurting.